Saturday, August 23, 2008

LULLING ABOUT......

My life is in a lull..... there is no one special in it at the moment. Beginnings have come and gone, nothing right enough to become a continuation.... the discontinuations leave me feeling a bit sad, and bad, for the possible discomfort I may have caused, but one must be true to one's self, which entails being honest with others.

No point in continuations if it is not the right sort of thing. Has to be two-sided as one-sided just doesn't work, as the past has shown me. Continue too long, past the point of discovering the one-sidedness, and the discontinuation becomes a painful thing.... a pain that I dislike causing.

So I am quietly lulling about my life right now.... trying to get into a space where I am comfortable with that position... the alone-ness, the one-ness... although not with loneliness.... that has not appeared as I have friends and family that I adore.

There is potential in one direction.... someone from the past... hesitant but interested.... the interest is mutual but never acted upon.... time will tell what is brewing beneath the surface, if indeed there is anything. So for now, I continue... to lull quietly...

Excuse me now, while I go and lull off to sleep.... I am tired.... zzzzzzzzz

3 comments:

  1. "Getting to know me,
    getting to know all about me"

    Good for you..dig deep. Treasures are usually hidden.

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  2. As I get older, life is about inner exploration - discovering who I really am and what makes me tick. And I am finding I actually like myself! ((which is probably a good thing))

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